Never leave things to the last moment...

I've been avoiding my American History Exam. Granted tonight is the only night I can take it, but I've had the essay questions since the beginning of the semester. But have I done anything about that? Nope. Everything I do for this teacher nets me an 83, so why bother? Write the essay, take the exam, get it over with and be done. But no, I have to have a friend, my only real life, in the fless, lives in the same town friend, implode today.

She's a bit doofy, but good at heart. She got attached to a friend from work a few months ago. More attached than a married woman should be, but that's her issue, not mine. I told her it wasn't healthy. Nothing "happened" of course, but things were still a might hairy. Crush object managed to do himself in rather messily a few weeks ago, and it all just hit her now. So what does she do, she shows up here in shambles. Only problem was I had no excess good energy to share, so she's sapped me dry.

Here's to hoping that Hamilton and Jefferson manage to sort themselves out in my mind.

Oh, and one more thing to say for those of you who watched BattleStar Galactica recently

FRACK!!! I want more!

Have a good day!


I ended up making an 86 on the final exam. Got my second B in my college career. Doesn't seem so important anymore. Above mentioned friend is still weepy about the guy. Spent an evening letting her drink things bigger than her head and then tell her husband of 20 years that she still loved him. I'm beginning to think that the online friends are the way to go, the flesh and blood ones are a bit weird.

The Here and Now

Hi all. DH and I have found a new online game to play. Horizons looks really promising. Thing is that a couple we have a pretty nasty history with is also planning on playing the game. DH assures me that 1) I can handle them if I do run into them and 2) that on 15 servers the chances of banging into them is slim to none. The thing is that even the thought of bumping into them leaves me with an icky taste in my mouth. They were intrigal parts of what could have been the largest tragedy in my life outside of losing my child.

I really REALLY want to play this game with DH, because its something we both love doing, and we'll be able to create our own little virtual world MUhahahahaha!

I know that what happened before won't happen again. I'm older and wiser, and smarter and more sure of myself and my marriage, but I really don't want to be afraid of bumping into them. The thought of wondering if every chat post, every blip, everything that comes across chat, every new guildmate might be *them* is really tainting this experience for me.

I haven't been in contact with them for months, and have no urge to contact them, for that matter. But will they recognize my screenname on boards I haven't posted on in months? or will they put together the large Dragon character named Fyreraven as mine?

Worse yet what if idiot also decides to start playing Horizons. Gods, I HATE this anxiety problem I'm dealing with. It needs to GO!

Thanks for listening to me rant.


Well, DH and I did indeed try Horizons and we played for about 4 months. The game has since gone bankrupt. We're currently awaiting the end of the semester for me, and we're going to be playing WoW. The couple I talked about above did not play Horizons, but they are planning on play WoW (World of Warcraft). I could care less if I see them. That's what the Ignore function is for.

The Topic For Today is GAH!

I've come to the astounding conclusion (tounge in cheek of course) that people on this mountain aren't mentally ill, they're just ill mannered. I had a client today walk up to my desk and drop her pants to half mast to show me her brand new hysterectomy scar. AHHH!!! I mean really, I put cover up on the small burn mark on my forehead gotten when the cat yanked the curling iron cord while I was doing my bangs, and this nut case is showing the office staff of her mental health professional's office her hysterectomy scar. I think I've been "scarred" for life!

GAH!!!!
Heard a raucus out in the waiting room yesterday. Went out to see what was going on. Man was asleep across 2 chairs and the endtable where the magazines are kept. No one else could get a magazine nor could they sit down. Guy is snoring like a bear too. I'm not so sure he wasnt drooling as well.

GAH!!!!

Don't even get me started on the fringe people. We have oriental rugs throughout the office ($35 at your local builder supply house) and we actually have clients who get down on their hands and knees, ass crack in the air for all to see, who meticulously straighten out each and every strand of fringe. I mean, really, if their mothers had said "Get off the damn floor, you're flashing everyone, pull your pants up and quit being so strange" they probably wouldn't need to be here.

GAH!!!!

Then there are the high school seniors who when asked if they are going to college look at me wide eyed and terrified and say "I'm not leaving this mountain ever!" Hello, the nearest Walmart is 25 miles away. How many places on god's green earth actually have a span of 25 miles on each side with no Walmart! RUN FOREST RUN!!! run away from this mountain, go do something with your life!

GAH!!!!

The counselor comes out and says, Oh, now dear (counselor happens to be my father) and says "These people are friends" he didn't take too kindly to my "If this is the best I can do for friends, shoot me right now". I mean, in my mind, friends are people you enjoy sharing a glass of wine with, or someone you could see yourself spending an afternoon with and maybe even look forward to it. Friends are people you call when your period is late for crying out loud.

GAH!!!!

Speaking of which, since when is my reproductive health and my want or not want to have children the local crazy woman's domain to be concerned about. I'm only 30, sure I have a 9 year old. When he graduates from high school I'll be an ancient 39. What the frelling business of hers is it that I'm not pregnant again? Three of my son's last 4 teachers have encouraged me to have another child. HELLO!

GAH!!!!

Have a nice day.