I'll miss you, Daddy

The man who inhabits the body of the man I have loved as my father for so many years, is not the dad who used to tie my shoes, taught me to ride a bike, and who would sit and talk to me for hours. I won't go into details, but for reasons all my own, today I severed all ties with him. I cry when the phone rings and see is number then listen to the angry message. I ache when I hear him say how the consequences will be dire if I don't do what he wants me to do. I am a mother. I will mother a hurt rock if I think it would do any good. It is who I am. What I am not is a martyr. He doesn't want me around any more and I don't want to be around him. No one can fault me for trying to be a good daughter and love him, care for him, and in general just be a good person in his life. He doesn't want that, he doesn't want to be thought of or taken care of. He doesn't want me around. He wants his own life.

So, dad, God Bless you, Goddess Bless You, and I wish you the brightest, bestest future you can have. I wish you contentment, and I wish you peace.

I love you, daddy. Good Bye

New Digs

What do you think of the new look? :)

I had a blast doing it. I thought we could use some color around here.

Well now...

Hmm…something is different.  I don’t have a headache.  My stomach isn’t in knots.  Is that a smile.  Woah, what’s that warm fuzzy feeling?

Good googly moogly…by jinkies…I think the gnomeinmyhead and I are happy.  Really contented and happy.  Hopeful for the future.  What a neat feeling!  It’s been so very long.

My parents are divorced and I’m FREE!!! YAY!!! They’ve screwed their lives up so badly that there’s no hope so I’m done coddling them.

DH and I have been talking about what we want our family life to be like and I’m excited.  Not a single bit scared.  Excited out of my mind, truthfully!  Think about it, what’s better than discovering a brand new place with your best bestest friend?  If you answered, not a darn thing, you’d be very right.  And you know what…I get to live the rest of my life with my bestest best friend!  And he’s cute too!  Good gravy, who would have thunk it?!

TEE HEE!

*wonders off to giggle and program because I’m that awake!*